knowingly impulsive

there are few things in life that i impulsively do on a regular basis. i know this concept seems like an oxymoron, but let me clarify. impulses on a regular and cautious basis are what i like to do, especially when it comes to money. yes, i spend money, we all spend money. but i usually spend it on other people, specifically buying them drinks or dinner. all of the "fun money" is usually reserved for other people. it is a rare occurence that i walk into a store with the specific purpose of buying something for myself- it's not as though i'm trying to tout myself as the "ultimate giver", but it has been engrained in me for a long time that "we" (assuming my family) just don't spend money on ourselves for fun. my dad doesn't ever buy anything, and only recently has my mother grasped onto the concept of buying things because she wants them.
there are also things that were basically forbidden to buy in my household growing up, as they were deemed a waste of money- most notably DVD's and magazines. little things like nail polish were also cautioned against, as the satisfaction from it is transient at best.
but magazines. that is really my only true impulse buy. once every 2 or 3 months i just buy one. i know that it is basically a waste of five dollars. for many people magazines are something that you read at the bookstore to pass the time- i usually thumb through one while i'm eating a bagel at the bookie and put it back on the shelf for those weaker-willed to be sucked into its glossy pages. i regularly stand my ground. yesterday i gave into to my impulse. you know why? -Andy Roddick.
i will forever have a weak place in my heart for that 6'2" 195-pound beauty of a tennis player, and when i saw his blue eyes and perfectly chiseled jaw on the cover of Outside magazine i couldn't help it. i read his article and meant to put it back- i did. but then i got sucked into a segment written by ben harper, then another about this writer who trained for a triathlon. so i bought it. i also did the core exercise routine written in there yesterday too, so i therefore deem it a worthwhile purchase. i read most of it yesterday, and plan on reading the rest when i'm sick of language diversity (for those of you who don't know, my thesis topic). i took it home in my bag and a sense of joy came across my face as i set it down on my coffee table. now there is something there to read if a stranger stops by. lovely.
now i just have to decide what my impulse will be next.