andy (gangsta nickname a-train) and i have been emailing back and forth from work lately and he's finally caught up on all my AmeriCorps stuff/general disdain for my current job/impatience.
while discussing the idea that most people are afraid to just go out there and do what they want to do because it's not "fiscally responsible" (note: none of these people are my close friends) he said the following. i think it's hilarious, uplifting, and soooo andy:
"i say go for it, you'll be worrying about money your whole life. besides, the US will be bankrupt and the stock market will probably ruin your 401k if you start saving now anyways. let's be real for a change. wasn't it nietzsche who said, 'live dangerously'?
probably a bad example because nietsche died insane, alone, and with syphilis. but you get the drift."
so wise.
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Saturday, August 15, 2009
solace
i'm freaking out, and it's literally only been a little over a week until i decided on this AmeriCorps adventure. an update:
- found out i needed another essay and self-reflection letter for a whole slew of positions in Baltimore. finished the essay and stuff, emailed it on Wednesday night, and waiting to get my transcripts and background check from Washington. now that i add the essay and transcripts to the application, i feel WAAAAAY better about it. i'm hoping to hear back sometime next week from them. their positions begin on September 6th, so i know that they're looking to hire people soon. woot.
that's the news about the job. in order to placate this massive amount of stress that is admittedly completely caused by my own brain, i have found a remedy that seems to work well.
Whitney Houston.
some people find solace in food, some in running 12 miles (gross)...i have found it in Whitney. don't ask me why. but, dancing and trying to belt out "So Emotional" has not only gotten me through the work week that continues to blow, but has also calmed me down. i remember that it's only been a little over a week and that i'm very qualified. and that i'm much better at tutoring kids than singing like Whitney Houston.
also, things could be worse: i could've been married to Bobby Brown and on crack. so there's that.
on a side note: i hope that Whitney has a rockin comeback. she's so freakin good.
side note 2: go to www.grooveshark.com and you can listen to any song you want any time. listen to "So Emotional" and dance around. an oft-forgotten Whitney stunner.
- found out i needed another essay and self-reflection letter for a whole slew of positions in Baltimore. finished the essay and stuff, emailed it on Wednesday night, and waiting to get my transcripts and background check from Washington. now that i add the essay and transcripts to the application, i feel WAAAAAY better about it. i'm hoping to hear back sometime next week from them. their positions begin on September 6th, so i know that they're looking to hire people soon. woot.
that's the news about the job. in order to placate this massive amount of stress that is admittedly completely caused by my own brain, i have found a remedy that seems to work well.
Whitney Houston.
some people find solace in food, some in running 12 miles (gross)...i have found it in Whitney. don't ask me why. but, dancing and trying to belt out "So Emotional" has not only gotten me through the work week that continues to blow, but has also calmed me down. i remember that it's only been a little over a week and that i'm very qualified. and that i'm much better at tutoring kids than singing like Whitney Houston.
also, things could be worse: i could've been married to Bobby Brown and on crack. so there's that.
on a side note: i hope that Whitney has a rockin comeback. she's so freakin good.
side note 2: go to www.grooveshark.com and you can listen to any song you want any time. listen to "So Emotional" and dance around. an oft-forgotten Whitney stunner.
Monday, August 10, 2009
impatience
once again, i feel one of my greatest character flaws has reared its ugly head once again. impatience has now overtaken my life after my ROCKIN weekend in baltimore with ms. b.
i've applied to now 7 official AmeriCorps positions in the DC/Baltimore area, and i want to go back so desperately, mostly because joy thinks i'm funny :) it was so refreshing to be with someone who knows you, where you don't have to continually feel like you're explaining yourself, where it's ok to be who you are. it's liberating.
i got back at midnight last night to arise at 445 this morning - needless to say, everyone at work noticed. when i checked myself in the mirror at work i thought i had mascara smeared under my eyes...but no, the dark circles didn't go away. and i was working on the monthly turd -- making me even more antsy than usual. there was a small part of me that wanted to make the grand "i quit" gesture. but that would be foolish, as i would be waiting around in greenville for an AmeriCorp position for who knows how long. as i was telling brelin earlier in discussing my waiting around for my application to get reviewed and then get a call : i really hope this Oprah "power of positive thinking" bullshit works. because if it does, i'm golden.
i feel qualified. i feel like i would be a good candidate for these jobs. it's not like i applied to become a financial analyst. but i have no idea how many people applied for each position, which does not help me gauge my cofidence in any way. could someone just give me a rough estimate? then i can know how hopeful to be.
yes, this is all i've thought about all day. and will continue to think about until i hear anything back from these jobs. it is maddening.
i've applied to now 7 official AmeriCorps positions in the DC/Baltimore area, and i want to go back so desperately, mostly because joy thinks i'm funny :) it was so refreshing to be with someone who knows you, where you don't have to continually feel like you're explaining yourself, where it's ok to be who you are. it's liberating.
i got back at midnight last night to arise at 445 this morning - needless to say, everyone at work noticed. when i checked myself in the mirror at work i thought i had mascara smeared under my eyes...but no, the dark circles didn't go away. and i was working on the monthly turd -- making me even more antsy than usual. there was a small part of me that wanted to make the grand "i quit" gesture. but that would be foolish, as i would be waiting around in greenville for an AmeriCorp position for who knows how long. as i was telling brelin earlier in discussing my waiting around for my application to get reviewed and then get a call : i really hope this Oprah "power of positive thinking" bullshit works. because if it does, i'm golden.
i feel qualified. i feel like i would be a good candidate for these jobs. it's not like i applied to become a financial analyst. but i have no idea how many people applied for each position, which does not help me gauge my cofidence in any way. could someone just give me a rough estimate? then i can know how hopeful to be.
yes, this is all i've thought about all day. and will continue to think about until i hear anything back from these jobs. it is maddening.
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