Monday, May 25, 2009

tootie

well folks, it's not even officially summer weather here in SC, but i'm already feeling impending hair-doom. right now it's 80 degrees and overcast, which means all the humidity in the air just hangs out and destroys your coiff. while never being a huge fan of hair products in general, i have now become a convert. max hold hairspray seems to be one of the only ways to control the half straight-half frizz hair that i have from complete frizz out.

my biggest fear in this situation: looking like tootie from the facts of life to refresh your memory: my word. at least i don't have the headgear.

Friday, May 22, 2009

green Necco wafers taste like Pine-Sol smells

the next time i visit home, i will try not to hit 4 cities that are at least 2 hour drives from one another. i was so freakin exhausted when i got back to my apartment, i just checked my mail yesterday. that is pathetic.

but while i was home i remembered just how great everyone was: when you're away from those people that know you best for long periods of time and you're surrounded by people that still inhabit the, "if i say this, will this person think I'm _________?" zone of friendship, it gets tiring. it was great to remember that there are some people around that will always get it. they will always think you're funny, they won't make you feel self-conscious or a terrible person for being a DEMOCRAT, and they will love you in the silences.

one person i didn't see enough of was my dad, good ole steve-o. because he was shuttling between new orleans and d.c., all i saw him was for andy's commencement in idaho (what a terribly boring and painful situation) and it was then that i remembered just how goofy (read: awesome) he is.

number 1: he dozed off at least 7 times during graduation with the same look he has when the sermon has gone on for 20 minutes too long. he folds his hands in his lap as his body language says he's listening...but the eyes are closed. like i said to him, "another graduation, another nap."

number 2: he and i both hate the same public speakers. the commencement speaker, representative walt minnick, started off talking about the state of idaho and veered quickly onto nuclear weapons (both iran and n.korea were name-dropped) and then continued to randomly add famous people into the speech, as if that was going to make it any less painful. every time another random person was mentioned (ex: Jonas Salk) dad would quip, "ah-- another idahoan." classic steve-o. pop also mentioned that although nuclear weapons were mentioned, the Boogeyman that naturally follows the nuclear arms talk was merely implied.

(note-- as the whole family is aware, i, along with all friends, was very hungover at the ceremony. when i get hungover i laugh at the drop of a hat and am not able to control the tears of laughter that come streaming down my face. just seeing my dad in all his ridiculous glory made me convulse and smear my makeup).

but i digress. number 3: my dad busted out a roll of Necco wafers he bought in Dusty specifically for this event. i am pretty positive he is still the only person who eats this particular candy, and he FREAKIN LOVES THEM. i was telling my uncle greg about this, and he had no idea what they were. point proven.

number 3a: while eating the Necco wafers, he offered some to both myself and alyssa, and did the typical hand the pack/quickly draw it back move common with grandpas. although he is not yet a grandpa, the sheer fact he does this AND eats Necco wafers is proof that he will be an awesome one. thus began my makeup smearing. i also predict that he will be the old guy at church that goes up to little kids and says, "i got your nose." it's only a matter of time-- and i am waiting with bated breath for it.

Monday, May 11, 2009

home

i'm heading back to washington for a week in less than twelve hours.
i have never been so excited to be cold and possibly rainy.
people there just get it.

Monday, May 4, 2009

quandry

after 4 days of the modem/installation CD in a box, 1 day of installation CD in computer, and 1 hour on the phone after 12 hours of work today, i finally have internet at my house. this not only affirms the fact that i will never be able to set up electronic equipment without the aid of a qualified individual (although the directions are meant for 12 year olds), but now also instills the fear of unplugging my computer. i want to get a wireless router so i can move my computer from the dining room table (which i was able to put together, hooray me!), but i honestly don't think my heart can handle another week of this crap. i also am afraid of taking my computer to another location. very afraid.
what is also disheartening is that i now have no real need to go to the coffee shop downtown, which means i am not forced to stare longlingly at the hot barista(s). there's a part of me that will miss that.

Friday, April 24, 2009

bass

i'm awaiting the arrival of my car - Blue Steel - from Washington. apparently it was picked up last night and hopefully will get here within the next two weeks. they didn't really give the best estimate of time to my parents, so we'll see what happens. i hope that it comes before i head to the northwest.

since then i've been driving a Jeep, my uncle's Jeep to be exact. it is bright yellow. it gets terrible gas mileage. i am not a Jeep person, i've decided. but, you take what you can get. it's stereo system is also a little wacky. apparently greg bought the Jeep from a kid who decided to put giant subwoofers in the back and a touch-screen (really?!) faceplate. needless to say, i inadvertantly press the wrong thing on a daily basis. i also can't particularly figure out how to turn the bass down, so it is very loud.

it doesn't help that the Jeep is yellow and i am a young person, but the bass has caused many a dirty look from older folks. when i feel like i'm listening to the radio at a reasonable volume, it sounds like the outside of a fun friday circa 1999 and "Miami" by Will Smith is being blared at full blast. or, the outside of the Rollarena...basically ever. so there i am, sitting at a stoplight listening to the radio for a song that i love- necessitating FULL volume - and another dirty look comes my way. "stupid kids..." i bet they say. the bass is blaring, i can't figure out how to turn it down and at this point i've stopped caring. "those kids and they're hip-hop crap..."

no no, oh no. i'm blaring "Red Red Wine" by UB40. ima balla.

Friday, April 17, 2009

share

although english major i may be, i was never one of those who would lock myself away and read ancient copies of Poe or write term papers for months about vampires in 19th century lit. just not my bag.
but, i love poetry. i don't consider myself extremely well read in the genre at all and i couldn't recite any really good poem, but poems are great because they make you think. they also, more than any other writing, make me stop and breathe for a bit. i know that i mentioned kay ryan in a post last july about writer's workshops that people got a little hyped up about, but i never really put down any of her poetry. it's really good, and the words are chosen just perfectly. this is one of my favorites (and yes, it made me cry)

THINGS SHOULDN'T BE SO HARD
A life should leave
deep tracks:
ruts where she
went out and back
to get the mail
or move the hose
around the yard;
where she used to
stand before the sink,
a worn-out place;
beneath her hand
the china knobs
rubbed down to
white pastilles;
the switch she
used to feel for
in the dark
almost erased.

Her things should
keep her marks.
The passage
of a life should show;
it should abrade.
And when life stops,
a certain space—
however small —
should be left scarred
by the grand and
damaging parade.
Things shouldn't
be so hard.

favorite line: by the grand and/damaging parade. and the china knobs rubbed down to white pastilles. mmmm....

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

i know, i know

at this point y'all probably think that i'm never going to write on my blog again. well, YOU were wrong.
i don't have internet at my apartment yet (i literally just have one twin bed that looks very camp lutherhaven-style)...and that's it. i still don't know if i want to get a tv, mostly because i think i can live without it. and it's another thing to buy and THEN keep paying for.
the more exciting news is that i'm going to start tutoring again! ever since i stopped working at WSU, i've really been missing the whole idea of doing something GOOD for people. after working for a company like Fluor for two months, i don't think i'm really cut out to be an executive. i can't see how they truly believe they're doing any good for people. there's really no tangible evidence of goodness by making productivity betterment initiatives and writing nonconformance reports. i'm not saying these are not bad people, and maybe those executives are more sophisticated than me: they can come up with some abstract reason why they really are making a difference. they don't have to see it, they just know.
well, i don't. i have to be able to not only see the lightbulb going off, i have to be talking people, teaching people. doing something. i know that when it's all said and done i'm going to be a teacher. i just don't know quite how i'm going to get there. but, really, i don't usually do things in the most direct way. much like my writing, sometimes my life goes around and around the fence and only SOMETIMES finds the gate.
so, i finally got my patootie in gear and called the Greenville Literacy Association. i went yesterday and observed a pre-GED social studies group. i'll be in training for 8 hours over the next two weeks and then i'll be teaching Adult Basic Ed/ pre-GED courses! at this point i think i want to do writing, reading, or social studies. but, if they need me to rock the fractions class, i will.
the need here is great too. south carolina has the highest high school drop out rate, which makes me upset because the damn governor won't take the stimulus money to maybe even attempt to give any money for a good cause (google him, it's ridiculous). so yeah, i'm feeling good about that. filling up my time with a lot of stuff. still adjusting to everything here (yikes) and look forward to making new friends.
mostly though, i like the students at Greenville Literacy. they're democrats. they get it.